disillusioned

I’ve been having this feeling of impending doom for quite some time… call it whatever you like – PMS, depression, stress… but I’m really very uneasy. It’s not as if I have a cause for concern, quite the opposite in fact. I’ve no huge reasons whatsover to feel this way. But I feel this way.

Halloween’s just round the corner. I remembered the fun I used to have at those parties… bloodstained rice, test tube babies, witches with broomsticks and horrible britney spears clones. Now I can only remember. The clubs went all out with their themes and decos. Ah, those were the days. I miss them so. I’m 26… in three month’s time or so I’ll be 27. Late twenties. Wow. Where has the time gone? I suppose the years would pass even faster from now on. Where will I be 10 years later?

I’m bothered about my other half’s life in JB. He’s been keeping late hours, coming home past midnight on most days. Long distance relationships suck. You really want the relationship to work, but truly, you’re not together 95% of the time… and when you really need that person to be there they aren’t. Well, yes of course, you’re independent and you can rely on yourself and those close around you to help you, but… It’s just not easy. *sigh*