limbo rock

As far as I can see, my life is in limbo. I rent a room in Singapore where I stay mainly during the weekdays. Weekends are either spent in JB or KL, sometimes in Singapore.

I own an apartment but I don’t stay in it. I own a car that I don’t get to drive. I am married, but I only see my husband a maximum of 4 days a week.

How long am I going to continue living this way is anybody’s guess.

Oh, why don’t both you and your husband get jobs in Singapore, then you can stay together.

Well I would dearly love that too, but first I have to make him want it. And that’s tough. He gets irritated when you nag at him, but if you don’t nag him, he doesn’t move. So what can I do? When you’re married, many decisions can’t be made without both parties agreeing to it. No wonder they call it being “tied down”.

Looking on the bright side, at least the money is better and the hours are quite decent. I also got the chance to learn a lot more than I did in my old company. I can see myself hanging around here for quite some time. I just need to find more things to do, besides reading, and reading, and reading…Which comes to the next part of my limbo rock.

I was reading an ex-colleague’s blog and something really leapt out of the page and slapped me across the face. He said that there’s nothing to write about in the blog other than his career. Well, it relates to me as well. I used to love singing, but I haven’t sang in years. I enjoy baking and cooking but I haven’t done so too in such a long time because I don’t have my own kitchen. I used to have a nightlife, but since I started working, it has dwindled to the occasional mamak outing with a couple of old friends. What is exciting in life now? Nothing!

And I’m doing absolutely nothing to change that, cause changing costs money. And I’m short of that, especially after my wedding. We haven’t even gone on a honeymoon. So, yea it sux, and it’s my own fault.